You know I continue to be frustrated at the lack of my ability to seem be helpful with anything. Its in my nature to want to help in the way that I know best, and when there is no way that I can do that then I feel even worse. Currently there are a few things that this is most apparent with, that are just driving me a bit bonkers.

The first one is Gentoo related, and the fact that somehow I’ve gotten involved with the proctors somehow. It reminds me entirely of how I came to be a developer in the first place. It just sort of happened one day that I was involved and became a developer as well. What exactly I’m doing with them I’m not sure..but like the vast majority of developers. I bounce around to keep things interesting. Have another project I need to get to as I actually use it but its one of those that have a horrible build system from the former maintainer, so I get to work on it and see what and where things need to go and force them there with an ebuild. Horray!

The second is the fact that I’ve been unable to be of any help to the woman I’m involved with. We all have rough times and there are times where no one can help, but it doesn’t mean that I don’t want to be of help, even if all it means is that I serve as a distraction to what is going on, and give you a bit of an escape. Partially this is also caused by the distance, which has shown its ugly head far more then I want but, that’s part of the trials of it, and I’m not going anywhere so you kind of get stuck with me.